TIM BAKER

And I work and I work all day and night
I wonder if I’m ever gonna get it right
I push and I push to get ahead
I know I gotta make my daily bread
 
And I know I don’t have time to lose
I wonder if I really have time to choose
I barely have time to shed a tear
I hardly have time to shake the fear
 
And the body says “Remember you gotta breathe”
The body says “Take the time to grieve”
The mind says “Let the silence flow”
The mind says “Allow yourself to grow”

La Vita – Beverly Glenn-Copeland

The quote above is from a song I am really feeling at the moment and it explains some of the mindset I was in doing this session. Confusion, unhappiness, anxiety, imposter syndrome and just as the image above says, the question that has been bugging me – ‘What is the point?’. This was done the same day as this abstract which although hard to read contains the same question at the top – and both have ‘WHY?’ at the bottom. Still not answered those questions, but there was a lot of angst at the start of this session.

But the image above is the most honest of the session, if not the best technically, it says succinctly what my state of mind was and how I am re-evaluating how life drawing fits within my process. At the moment it’s this separate thing off to the side, but this drawing brought my abstract approach back dead and centre, in my anger about not really feeling I know what I am doing.

Better technically and more appreciated by the life model was my ink pieces, I enjoyed working with the Pentel Brush Pen into wet watercolour paper, and the washes of the fineliner below. I needed to prove to myself after the explosion that I could actually do something representational. Whether it has a point I leave to you.

Also more Woody Pencil drawings, one in traditional woody pencil, and the one above is experimenting using the Stabilo All pencils into wet paper after first drawing with colour Pigma Micron fine liner. I like this effect much more than the traditional pencil look, and they come out far more vibrant and energetic. I find many pencil drawings are just dead and lifeless, especially mine! Also the pen drawing wasn’t going so well, so scribbling all over it made me feel better.